When living with a condition such as anxiety it can often be the case when you think so much it just sounds like white noise all around you, and when you're in a deep thinking session and someone interrupts you, you can become a fire breathing dragon that no one wants to bother with in risk of getting their head bitten off.
I am definitely owning up to becoming a dragon if someone tries to talk when my head is already doing enough of that. The problem then becomes what to say, there is so much going on in your head and so many options its like being a child in a sweet shop. I've learnt my go to phrases mainly consist of swear words, hence fuck off, leave me the fuck alone and shut up with a fuck sometimes in there if i'm feeling especially nasty.
The problem is I don't want to be nasty to anyone but more noise, words and conversation are the last thing I need in my head. Being that kid in the sweet shop and you don't know what to have you go with something you know you like, your safe choice in a sense. its the same with our go to sentences and phrases. I know if i tell someone to shut up or fuck off the result is going to be them doing exactly like that, and at that point you don't think about the consequences of their feelings.
The problem can come that if these moments happen often, for me they do and mostly when i'm with my family. It can make you look a bad person when really noise and stress don't help the anxiety noise in your head. I can think of at least 50 different scenarios in minutes but translating how i'm feeling into words seems like a task far too complex for my brain to comprehend.
Over time I have managed to find a few ways to try and prevent my swear defenses to try and save my arse from looking like a ruthless dragon.
1- Get a drink and keep taking sips every few seconds, this occupies your mouth and gives you more time to react and hopefully not swear at your parents.
2- Don't say anything, try and zone out and just nod to look like your participating, being seen as not listening is of far less importance than offending people.
3-Say you have a headache a little white lie to save peoples feelings isn't always a bad thing just don't get into the habit of it only use it when you really have to.
4-To the toilet! naturally body functions cannot wait when they call and sometimes its best to be sure you're not in danger of wetting yourself so make your way to the toilet!
Hopefully these tips will help you get out of that awkwardness of offending loads of people when you have a messy head. And of course if there are any that find work for you let me know ! I would love to do a blog post about methods that help people cope with all kind of mental illness related situations.
Rosie X
I am definitely owning up to becoming a dragon if someone tries to talk when my head is already doing enough of that. The problem then becomes what to say, there is so much going on in your head and so many options its like being a child in a sweet shop. I've learnt my go to phrases mainly consist of swear words, hence fuck off, leave me the fuck alone and shut up with a fuck sometimes in there if i'm feeling especially nasty.
The problem is I don't want to be nasty to anyone but more noise, words and conversation are the last thing I need in my head. Being that kid in the sweet shop and you don't know what to have you go with something you know you like, your safe choice in a sense. its the same with our go to sentences and phrases. I know if i tell someone to shut up or fuck off the result is going to be them doing exactly like that, and at that point you don't think about the consequences of their feelings.
The problem can come that if these moments happen often, for me they do and mostly when i'm with my family. It can make you look a bad person when really noise and stress don't help the anxiety noise in your head. I can think of at least 50 different scenarios in minutes but translating how i'm feeling into words seems like a task far too complex for my brain to comprehend.
Over time I have managed to find a few ways to try and prevent my swear defenses to try and save my arse from looking like a ruthless dragon.
1- Get a drink and keep taking sips every few seconds, this occupies your mouth and gives you more time to react and hopefully not swear at your parents.
2- Don't say anything, try and zone out and just nod to look like your participating, being seen as not listening is of far less importance than offending people.
3-Say you have a headache a little white lie to save peoples feelings isn't always a bad thing just don't get into the habit of it only use it when you really have to.
4-To the toilet! naturally body functions cannot wait when they call and sometimes its best to be sure you're not in danger of wetting yourself so make your way to the toilet!
Hopefully these tips will help you get out of that awkwardness of offending loads of people when you have a messy head. And of course if there are any that find work for you let me know ! I would love to do a blog post about methods that help people cope with all kind of mental illness related situations.
Rosie X
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