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My darkest moments are my weapon

In my darkness moments and when I am able to escape them I always find that reading I am not alone is always a benefit to my recovery of a relapse or just a dark period within my life. There are two books that have really helped my growth through mental illness and difficult life situations, Rupi Kaur Milk and Honey and Alicia cook Things I've been feeling lately.

These poetry books have inspired many thoughts and feelings within me, so much so that I am now working on my own poetry book. Writing poetry for me has always been somewhat of a love and ease to me, I have enough emotions and experiences to make the paper they are written on have a heartbeat.

The book will definitely open up many aspects of life and living with mental illness. I haven't put a time limit on myself but I hope by this time next year I will be on the way to a publisher of sorts. I'm using the darkest times in my life to make something amazing, hopefully ! I also hope that it will bring some peace to those who struggle and hopefully raise awareness.

watch this space

Rosie X

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